Money Was My Idol

If someone asked me what was the most importanta rich man to enter into the kingdom of heaven."
thing in life fifteen years ago I would have saidMatthew 19:24. This verse stuck with me for a while.
money. Money was the god in my life and while IThe Holy Spirit was convicting my soul over the fact
was getting my bachelors degree in Computerof money and where it played such a significant part
Science, I couldn't wait to graduate to start makingin my life.
money. When I got a job at a publishing companyI remember the company I worked for until it went
maintaining all their computer systems and makingbelly up, I was now in the throes of the unemployed.
$48,000 a year I felt I was well on my way to myI moved down to California and tried to get another
dreams.computer job but those were the days when all the
My dreams were to buy a nice house, a nice car, anddot com companies were going broke. So my
a great husband to share it with. That was my mainbrother-in-law got me a job selling Keebler cookies. I
motivator for life and that's what got me up everyhated that job and I hated the fact that I couldn't
morning was to go out and make money and go toget a computer position. Little did I know that God
the best restaurants in town and be well known forwas doing a work in my heart. I remember throwing
my accomplishments. I wanted to vacation in Hawaiitantrums every time I went to work and would cry
and the Caribbean with every vacation I got.at night for the loss of my old job where I was up
I came from humble beginnings and was poor all myto making $65,000 a year plus bonuses and raises. I
life but once I got my degree and started to makewas so miserable with the fact that buying a home
good money, I felt like I was someone. I was able toand a new car while making $17.00 an hour was
take care of myself and that to me was ansuddenly out of my reach. After all the hard work
accomplishment. I did it! I made a name for myself! Iand the time I spent getting certified by Microsoft, I
worked hard to drag myself out of the hell hole Ithought God was punishing me.
was in. I did it by myself and nobody could take thatWhat I didn't know was that God was trying to
away from me.teach me that all the material possessions I received
When a good friend of mine shared with me the truewere not going to make me happy. He was trying to
gospel which is the "good news" of salvation and thatteach me that if I saved up all my treasures in
God saves sinners, that right there stopped me inHeaven that that would bring me much reward.
my tracks. I mean I knew I was a sinner but wasMatthew 6:20 tells us to store up for ourselves
unaware that Jesus Christ was nailed to a cross fortreasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not
my sins. Man is by nature sinful and separated fromdestroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.
God with no hope of remedying that situation. ButMy heart was in the wrong place as was my attitude.
God, by His power, provided the means of man'sIt took me a long time not to be angry with God
redemption in the death, burial and resurrection ofabout getting menial jobs that paid nothing.
the Savior, Jesus Christ.I finally accepted the fact that if I were to live for
When I became a Christian, everything about my lifeGod, then God would be the one and only one I
changed. The more I got to know Jesus Christ thewould worship. I made a decision that I would no
closer I became aware of my sin and the more Ilonger bow down to idols and worship them thinking
understood that money was the idol I wasthey were the way to my salvation. Jesus saves and
worshipping. I didn't know God was a jealous God butis the only one that can forgive.
He is and He wants you to worship only him. When IThere are so many lessons in my Christian walk that
read a scripture in the Bible about a young rich manI had a hard time overcoming but money was the
asking the Lord what must I do to enter thehardest for me. Today, I pray that God places me in
Kingdom of God? God told him to sell everything hea place where I can make enough money to take
had and give it to the poor and come follow me. Thecare of myself and all my needs. Other than that, I
young man held his head down and walked away andam happy that God told me that He will never leave
Jesus said, "Again I tell you that it is easier for ame nor forsake me. That He will always take care of
camel to pass through the eye of a needle than forme and that I must trust in Him only.