Letting Go - An Adventure with Wild Spinner Dolphins

I started researching dolphin swim programs and trips.their flukes (tails) or carryingthem on their rostrums
Later that summer, I attended an engagement party(their long beaklike jaws). As agroup we decided that
forfriends where I met Jon, a personal growth andwe would come down to the bay for afourth day
workshopleader. He was leading a trip to Hawaii theand bring the dolphins a gift of leaves andflowers.
following Marchto swim with the wild spinner dolphinsThat last morning we carefully swam out with
on the Big Island ofourgifts, looking for the dolphins, but they had
Hawaii. Our mutual interests soon sparked intodisappeared. Wehad not had a prior agreement to
romance. Isigned up for the trip and agreed to helpswim with them, and intheir enigmatic fashion they
design the visualsfor his flyers and advertising. I washad quietly vanished. Wereturned to the beach, and
thrilled! In myimagination I immersed myself in theon the sand we created afarewell mandala of shells,
dancing waters ofred hibiscus flower petals andyellow leaves. I was
Kealakekua Bay, I flew with the Goddess Pele overtouched by the delicate beauty of ourfragile creation.
rivers ofunderground molten lava and sacred caves,It seemed appropriate that our lastencounter would
and I felt thebreath of balmy ocean breezes on mybe with our group together standing in acircle holding
skin.hands, with the temporal beauty of naturespread out
As the months went by and we got closer to ourat our feet.
departuredate, I began to wonder what the chancesThe teaching for me here was about the power of
were, realistically,of actually finding the dolphins. Afterthe heart,of letting go and surrendering. What I
all, we were meetingthem somewhere out in one oflearned was that weare enormously powerful if we
the largest natural bays inthe Hawaiian islands. I felt achoose to create out of love. Ifelt as though I
great sadness well up insideme as I considered theunderstood in a new way the old adage: Letgo, and
possibility that this encounter mightnot happen. Forlove will find you. With the distance of hindsight,
days I struggled within myself, wanting topreparemymind would sometimes argue that I tend to have
myself for a very real scenario -- the likelihooda veryoveractive imagination and that I am a prime
thatthey would not be there. Over and over I'vecandidate forhearing and seeing things. How would I
observed thisdilemma between the doubting mindever know whetherthe dolphins would have shown
and the heart. Theheart longs and aches, and theup regardless of anything Idid or felt? Wasn't it all
mind scrambles to protectus from disappointment,just a matter of random chance?
from failure, from disillusionment.Over the years, however, the truth of these
For days I prayed and had conversations with theexperiences hasbecome more and more palpable. The
dolphinsin my head. Finally, I came to a place ofdolphins are aconstant reminder to check in with
letting go. I let go ofmy attachment to seeing them.myself and to askwhether a wish for something or
If they chose not to come,that was okay. I wouldsomeone is truly comingfrom my heart. If the
still enjoy my vacation in Hawaii.answer is yes, then those things -- bethey people,
Nothing would be lost. In fact, everything would beprojects, places, experiences -- seem to
perfectjust as it was.cometowards me. They do show up. It is not a
It was at this place of detachment, of letting gological road.
andsurrender, that something miraculous happened. IIf my desire is coming from a place of ego or of
was verybusy with work the week before we weretrying tocontrol a situation, the outcome is less
scheduled to leave.predictable. The
I was putting in long hours, and I had countless"message" doesn't seem to get through -- or if it
details toattend to. Then, in the midst of all thisdoes, itdoesn't seem to have much power. Over and
pre-occupation andnoise, I started to hear somethingover again, Ihave heard the communications to relax
else. I started to hear,faintly at first and then louder,andsurrender and let go. As a result, I find that I
small distinct chirpings andwhistlings. It becamecrymore, and I laugh more. I try to let myself be in
unmistakable -- it was the sound ofdolphins, and itthe river oflife, no matter how scary it may
got louder. I don't believe this, I thought. Isignaledsometimes appear -- to gowith the flow rather than
back anyway: Thank you for communicating, butnowtrying to resist it. I try following myintuition or my
I'm having a hard time concentrating. All week longgut, often down a seemingly illogical path.
itwas like being tuned into a very special andUltimately, the power of Love seems to find a way.
exclusive radiofrequency.Itappears to be irresistable.
At the end of the week we flew from San FranciscoSince these initial experiences, I have become familiar
to thetown of Kona on Hawaii. From the air I couldwiththe term telempathy, a phrase coined by Joan
see themoonlike lava landscape of the west shore.Ocean,who has spent years swimming with the wild
We arrived atour beautifully situated hotel south ofspinners in
town, ate dinner andthen headed for bed. We wereHawaii. Telempathy is a combination of telepathic
scheduled to wake up early,at 5 a.m. the nextandempathetic communication, or empathy at a
morning, to carpool to Kealakekua Baywith ourdistance.
wetsuits and snorkel gear. In the haziness ofEmpathic communication occurs when we experience
earlymorning light we sheepishly greeted one another,theexact sensations of someone or something else
coffeecups in hand. My heart hammered in my throat.with whomwe are emotionally close. My own
The momenthad arrived. Would the dolphins show upexperience has shownme that dolphins tend to be
for their date -- aninvitation made through the etherextremely empathic. They seemto have the ability to
and precipitated in theheart? Slowly, we drove thefeel the pain and emotional state ofanother being.
winding road down towards theglistening waters ofThis, combined with their echolocation orimaging skills
the bay and pulled into a sandy parkinglot. Large red-- the ability to project clicking sounds
hibicus flowers lay strewn across the ground.(created in the air sacs beneath the blowhole) out in
I walked toward the beach, and then I saw it -- thefront ofthem, then interpret the soundwaves as
splash ofa single dolphin jumping just off shore.they are reflectedback, thereby determining the size
I was so astonished that I started to cry. I realizedand distance of foreignobjects -- seems to make for
then that ifthis was to be the only contact we hada very sophisticated form oftelepathy. I am reminded
with the dolphins allweek, I would still beof a woman in our group on ourtrip to Hawaii who
extraordinarily happy. To me, they haddecided towas pregnant. She didn't go into thewater for the
keep our date. Later, at the end of our swim, Ispokefirst couple of days because she felt tired fromthe
briefly with an old Hawaiian man who sat watchingourflight. When she finally did, she was surrounded
foray out into the water. He grinned andbydolphins who seemed to show a particular interest
quietlycommented, "They haven't been here forin her. Itwas if they knew she was carrying a child
weeks, but todaythey are here."and neededspecial attention. The combination of
We did find a huge pod of dolphins -- or perhapsthese two skills -- theability to be empathic and also
they foundus. They showed up on each of the threeto "see through things" --makes the dolphins
days we hadhoped to swim with them. It wasespecially suited as "healers" (by theirvery presence)
magical and extraordinarilydreamlike -- like being in anand as messengers, perhaps even cosmicmessengers.
altered state of reality oranother dimension. In theWhen people ask if dolphins have changed me, I say
evening Jon led us inmeditations. "Visualize," he said.that Iseem to have more dreams now and fewer
"What more do you want tocreate for yourself withplans than Iused to. I hold my dreams out in front of
the dolphins?" My inner vision hadbeen flooded withme and then letthem go. Invariably my dreams show
brilliantly colored pictures of the dolphinsever sinceup in unexpected waysand sometimes in new forms
our first swim in the water. It was like watchingmy-- here we are, it's time,here's the connection or the
own inner nonstop movie. I wondered -- was Iopportunity. I worry lessabout the details and spend
creatingthe pictures, or were the dolphins sendingmore time putting color into mydaydreams, adding
them to me? As Isat quietly attending to the in andscents and enjoying the warmth of thesun on my
out of my breath, I sawmyself gazing into the eyeskin.
of a dolphin as it slowly swamnext to me. ThenIn the midst of great change or loss I am reminded
another one leapt high up in front of me.to trustthat everything is unfolding perfectly. Stay
The next morning I found myself transfixed by thecalm, listen andcatch the next wave. I try to practice
gaze of adolphin as he gracefully swam past me.living in dolphin time. Tome dolphins live in circular time
Then a loud splashcaught my attention as a dolphinas opposed to linear time.
leapt into the air, sprayingme with water. I laughedFor many of us life appears to move in straight lines,
out loud. They must have gotten mymessage. Orbutperhaps it is more accurate to say it moves in
maybe I got theirs.manydirections at once perfectly synchronized. We
One of the things we discovered was that theare notseparate from one another, but part of a
dolphins likedplaying a game with leaves. Theymuch greater podthat has its own intelligence. Our
particularly seemed to likethe large yellow leaves thatjob is just to tune in andthen get out of our own
floated out from shore. Thedolphins would pass themway.
from one fin to another,sometimes catching them on